My husband and I have been trying to conceive since June 2015. Throughout this journey I have started writing many different pieces some to myself, some for others, but all have the same end goal - to feel better.
I have been looking for inspiration beyond my own words that would allow me to truly open up. I knew the only way I could write was if I was 100% open. I started creating a page last week, one that I was okay with, but didn't have that moment when you know you are all in, until I heard it....
“There’s no lemon so sour that you can’t make something resembling lemonade”
This phrase came from the new television series, This is Us. If you haven't seen it, you should! These simple words that have been said in a hundred different ways over the years were so clear to me this time. It might of been the combination of time, place, and feeling but it freed me of expectation - that no matter how hard this time is or how it will all turn out in the end that this is our life lemon. We may not be blessed with the life we imagined for ourselves, but there is truly nothing so sour that will stop us from creating something like lemonade.
Those words are also what clearly gave me the inspiration to write because my heartache, my loneliness, my fears - are out there in other women all around the world and sometimes you just need to hear something a little differently for it to hit home. I hope I can do that for all of you facing this same heartache. I want to inspire you on the bad days, be your friend when your lonely, and share your joys and pains through the journey of trying to conceive.
This is my first step towards our lemonade, let's see how it tastes!